First I want to say this: blogs can become quite self-indulgent. And where it may seem that this is just me sitting here applauding myself. Its not...its a means of therapy, and a way for my family and friends to see what I'm up to. Life intervenes sometimes and we can't all be as in touch as we'd like. Just a thought...
A few months ago I went through a bit of a bump. I was very much in a "Where am I? who am I?who do I want to be? kind of place. I wasn't sure, for a while there. Where I wasn't "depressed" or anything like that, something wasn't quite right. I needed a change. I had discovered inspiration in many things, mainly revolving around music. I knew this meant something. When I talked about music, I was excited...my heart would beat a little quicker, and I felt fed. That was just TALKING about it. I was also finding the importance of quiet time, prayer, and meditation. Now, I'd never be preachy...it's more of a spiritual calmness that I have in which I have found serious value for myself. One day, I was just like "WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?!"...the next day, an opportunity came. I met a songwriter who I soon auditioned for, and am now working with her on some original songs to be a demo singer for. Apparently, somebody up there thinks I should be singing. I would have to agree. I realized that I wasn't using something that I had been given. Silly, right?
So, I decided to take voice lessons. I take from a FABULOUS woman here in LA who has inspired me in many ways. Her balance of technique and connection to feeling and the soul is perfect. The voice is connected to everryyyything in the body, by the way. Ladies, by doing a certain hummm we can get rid of cramps...just so you know. ;) Back on track...long story short, I love it and her. I feel more fed and more alive when I am singing...a sign that I'm doing something right for myself? Methinks. Where I have never and will never abandon my love for acting, I now know that we have to use what we've got to our advantage. If you are really hilarious and great and comedy, would you only focus on soap operas? Its not that you shouldn't exercise those muscles, but in order to get into entertainment, I have learned that you first have to identify your forte and go for it. That is exactly what I am aspiring to do here. It just turns out that I have realized that my dream my entire life has been to sing and hopefully touch people with my voice. Then, I will be able to open more doors to do more things I love, like acting!
Last week, I submitted myself for an audition for an artist development agency. What's that, you might ask? Basically, I have been putting myself out there for anything and everything I can sing for. An artist development agency takes on new artists and helps "develop" an image, sound, and following for that artist. I had the audition on Friday, and got the call on Saturday that I had made it. They chose a couple artists from the pack and I was lucky enough to be one of them. Needless to say, I am ecstatic.
I also had my first gig in LA last week. I sang with a jazz band. It was very exciting. Therapeutic. I'm happy.
Personally, things couldn't be better. I am very blessed with loving family, friends, and a wonderfully supportive boyfriend. I am constantly striving to be better, live better, and to be more aware of the good things in life. I've learned a lot. I'm loving it.
If you have taken the time to read this, thank you. If not...no big ;)
I send my love out!!
