What have I been doing since July?
Well, I am still in acting class, loving it more and more every week (that's a good sign!). I'm learning and growing constantly. I filmed an independent feature in August which was a wonderful learning experience...everyone had a voice in it because everyone was learning!
You know what? Why harp on the past? This is where I am now...and I'll be better at this blog thing. As I said, I'm loving acting class. My weekly dose. I am auditioning!!! I've learned to treat it as a performance. I have to. Its my chance to act for an audience, essentially...and it is the only way to make it to where I will actually be working. Even if I get 100 no's before I get one yes, the audition room is where I am a performer, other than when I am in class. Auditioning is so surreal. Its like you're not even there. On the ones that I've been on, I can't remember a THING I did in the room. Maybe its my mind's way of protecting me from overanalyzing. Thanks, mind! So all is well. I'm working on my skills and putting myself out there. I really would love to get back on my singing. I am always singing anyways...but mainly just around my apartment. I reallllyyyyyy miss singing in public. :(
On a non-professional note...I wrote a friend an email a few weeks ago telling them about things I've been thinking about...I'll take a little bit from that and put it here. Obviously, some of the private details will be taken out.
Recently, the inevitable question has entered my mind: why am I here? Other than the tugging at my heart that pulled me here in the first place...and has yet to lead me another way, I feel that whatever success I have here, small or large, will be so that I can give to others. And I don't mean to sound like some kind of martyr or something. I'm real...and I do have things that I will want to do in my life (for myself, my family, my loved ones, etc) with whatever success I have as well. A part of this evaluation period I have been in has been accepting that a lot of the people I love are really far away from me...therefore I send love really far away. Solution: find a local outlet for that energy as well! I have discovered a part of me that I think deep down I always knew was there. I have tapped into it in the past. Through several different avenues of inspiration, which I would love to go into at a later time (too much to explain in one email), I have decided to place that energy into spending time with kids at the Children's Hospital here in addition to sending it all over the country to my other loved ones. So I acted on that, applied, and I am going to an orientation this month! I already feel so much better. I am also looking into Big Brothers Big Sisters. So there :)
So that's kinda where I am..As usual, my thoughts are longwinded and I am always soul searching...especially lately. I'm very thankful as well...for everything I am able to do and for everyone in my life. :)
